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When everything else fell away, love stayed
When consent wasn’t given and my body used and abused, love still was with me
When he gathered us all up to say he wanted out, that he wanted to divorce us all, love still clung on
When he cut me with his sharp words and relentless control, even then I had love
When another love was offered, a forbidden one, one not meant to be, the lasting love caught me as I fell to my knees
When they kicked me out of their midst, like a disease that needed to be gotten rid of, love dug down deeper in me
When they whispered behind my back and plotted against me because they couldn’t bring themselves to line my truth against their versions of reality, love treated me like they should have, love embraced me without shame
When she loved and cut ties with man after man after man, when love couldn’t seem to find her or us with all the imposters, still the love I speak of stayed
When betrayal within your blood ties came and you felt like the breath was knocked out of your lungs, disoriented and confused who really was who they said they were, love coiled vehemently, unwilling to let me go even if she did
When her heart stopped beating and she was born without breath and life, love got wider to encompass all of the broken shards that were left of me
When old friends turned their backs with mumbled excuses and cutting lies, love stood strong in contrast to their weak facades of caring
When those meant to accept me turned on me and instead towards those who really had their allegiance amidst shallow rules and untruths, love told me I could still raise my chin up steady and strong
When another one was here and then gone oh so briefly, it was only love that was able to seep into the bleeding places and offer any comfort
When the house of faith brutally tumbled to the ground, like one which had a faulty foundation that gave way one dark night unexpected, love remained as the dust of a repentant life almost choked me in the releasing of itself
Love surprised me in its loyalty, it was a severe mercy that always held hands and remained, never let go, was present at every turn, even in the dark and in the silence, and now in the light
Love brought me to myself
Love was always what I was looking for
Even now, when the days and months are peppered with anxiety and sadness, the love still mingles in, it still shows up the loudest, is the brightest color
When mothering strong willed kids day in and day out threatens my grip on sanity, love will continue
When I long to find community and my bigger purpose in serving humanity, yet all the valleys I’ve had to travel through have worn me down and shaken up my purposes, love will guide me, this I know now
When my beloved loves me on the many hard days, when his kindness cushions the blows of everyday life, when he loves me so very very well, love is here
When everything else fell away, love stayed
Love won’t let me go
This one really got under my skin.
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